－－2007.03.25 凌晨2:54 補完
－－2007.03.25 凌晨2:54 補完
dear mama, sorry.
"studying is a hard work."
"what is the reason of studying."
"the knowledge learned at this moment is meaningless in the future."
"why your daughter is not clever as the others."
i said such strange words to mama when i arrived at home.
just like cannot be strong enough to stand anymore, i felt the surroundings of my eyes are very hot.
i don't know how much mama can get, however i am sure she is worried about me.
mama is always proud of me.
finally i did not cry, but i felt so depressive.
i am just a bit tired and want to take a rest. and then i will be alright tomorrow.
dear mama, you are used to strongly believe i am the most marvellous daughter of yours artlessly, and expect the day of my success optimistically.
therefore, I am sorry.
therefore, please sleep peacefully tonight.
therefore, please take care of your body.
therefore child, please take the responsibility more seriously. if you fall over unfortunately one day, you should either let everyone be blind to your weakness.
what is the time now?...ah,11:19.
ok i admit that i has not prepared very well for the chem test tomorrow, however i am very tired now||||||
tell me that if the topic of molarity is one of the members of 去死去死團, then, go to hell.
and then i look forward a bit to the activity tomorrow.
kaii-ko, please be crazy with us(smile).
but i was heard from my sister that the tickets in the afternoon is $55|||||i wonder if there is cheaper price for students.
i am boring again. really i have not anymore to say, just want to play the computer for a while,and then go to sleep.
er, actually i go to bed now.
the time now is 11:23
seil 殿你絕對是ak 的神.
i escaped from books and now shirk for a while.
when i came back home yesterday,it was nearly 9:00pm.
i still have no time to enjoy the doujinshis which was grabed(?)from m-ko...T^T
(at the very quick look that the doujinshis likely contain high yiao|||||have i brought the wrong boooooooooooooks 囧)
seil sama, you are really the god of ak.
and then i have nothing to say.
(go to review books again.)
my sister hopes my english can be better and better.
my method is mostly like this moment - using english to type diary= =.
actually i always like to imagine confusedly.
i imagine that if i had not done well at the very beginning, maybe i would not have needed to bear those things.
(the fact is that have you really done well? )
i imagine that if i had spoken more carefully, maybe i would not have had to review if i had said or done something wrong.
(the fact is that i am regretful)
i imagine that if i had tried to love you more, maybe you would have been happier and more satisfied in this moment.
(you are so arrogant.)
i imagine that if i could have loved myself more, maybe i would have lived better, more simply and freely.
(the fact is that you are narcissistic enough)
是說,怎麼if 啊maybe 啊之類的字眼那麼美好又那麼殘酷.